The Joy and Pain of Children

You guys are my biggest joys and also at times my biggest pains. You play together more often than not, it’s ridiculous how much you crack each other up. Sometimes it drives me crazy, makes me mad! I feel my head pounding from your screeches and wales. I don’t get what’s so funny, you’re laughing at the silliest things. At times I’ll check you guys out from the corner of my eye, admiring your carefreeness, your giggles and the fun you share. Still there are times I can’t bask in this with you, because it’s driving me up a wall. Especially when we go out, if mommy has to shop. Even though you are a bit conscious about mommy needing you both to behave and not act crazy, you get caught up in your childhood. The wild forests are calling from between the clothes racks and the fitting rooms are so inviting for hide and seek. The mannequins are flipping hilarious and your imagination says they’re your new buddies. I don’t know why some are shirtless and others headless, but it’s flipping hysterical to you.

 

Our days can be chaotic, full of “Stop IT’S” and “What did I say?” Yet you have no clue how stressed I can get. But then as night falls and it’s time for bed, finally a bit of calm enters my life. So what if I have to demand it, by this time you guys are too tired to continue acting like wild monkeys. Off to dreamland you go and some quiet returns. I stare at you while you sleep, still making sure that your chests are rising and falling. Each of you so beautiful and precious. I kiss your little feet that are sometimes still stinky because you didn’t scrub them well during your showers. I inhale between your little toes that once lived inside me. I can’t believe you are mine, as crazy as you little monkeys are, I couldn’t live without you. You drive me up a wall but you also bring me joy and fulfillment. As I learn to manage stress in a better way and navigate easier through my journey in motherhood things will be easier, at least I hope. Regardless of how I get, I can’t thank you enough for being my sun rays and my rainbows. I love you guys so much!

Mommy.